My boyfriend almost broke up with me this morning about 5 minutes ago. My head is pounding and my heart is racing. I haven't stop crying because I really truly don't want to end it with him. He's mad because I haven't been treating him the same and I've been getting mad over little things recently. My life has been really stressful lately with school and family. I know I don't really have any right to be like that but it all boils up inside of me. That's part of the reason I chose to write this blog. I really love AJ, and I really don't want to lose him. And another reason he almost ended it was because I talk on the phone with David a lot. I know I have every right to talk to him but AJ does get hurt a little inside when I do. AJ said that he already talked to somebody about it and that's part of what hurts the most. The fact that he talked to somebody else to help him consider breaking up with me.
I don't know what do say next time I talk to him. I don't know what to do. I have horseback riding in a couple of hours and now I don't know if I want to go to that. But apparently I have to because if I don't, everyone (my family) will think it's because I fell off last time. I think right now the best thing for me to do is go wash my face and then come back and think of what I should say to AJ to express how sorry I am and what I should do to change. I'm so upset... I keep forgetting to breathe. This is so horrible.
The picture is of AJ and my sister Abbey dancing.
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