I love Photos

As Divad would say : this is a momentous (ww?) occasion... I'm writing in my blog!!! Hurrah!

Anyway, a lot has happened and I've been terribly busy... to start off, I would like to show you a game that helps me with my nerves. It's very soothing and relaxing. I like it a lot.

Well, to start off, I'm on the phone with AJ. And he's on speaker right now. And I'm listening to the game music... Ha!

Okay, while I was gone, I suffered from minor headaches and major tiredness. I also received a brief acknowledgement from the one and only Sarah.

On the bus today we talked about Micheal Jackson and penis' and the big question: "Would you rather have sex with someone of your own sex, or get a sex change." (NO OFFENCE to ANYONE who happens to read this. I promise) So yea, that was very interesting.

And they say you learn something new everyday... well me and my woeful friend Meredith learned something from the three boys that were on the bus today... We learned what "pitching" and "catching" meant. Here:

When they explained it they did this; Pitching with a thrust forward with their hips... and Catching with them bending forward and thrusting their body forward.... Get the picture?

I'm reading Catcher in the Rye for English and I really like it a lot.

Now I'm talking to Divad and about to go get ready for bed.

Last, last Friday I got a 100% on my Math test... I was so overjoyed because each test I've been getting, like, 99's and 98's. And the reason I got those points taken off were for something stupid like: my answer is x=2y but the real answer is y=2x. That was what I circled but my work clearly stated the right answer. Oh well. At least I got me 100.

Well, I promise I'll write more tomorrow. I'm about to go to bed and I'm not really allowed to talk on the phone past 9:00pm from now on because I missed the bus this morning... I don't know.

Anyway, to leave on a good note... I have an interview tomorrow for Starbucks.... But the bad news is that I can't make it out all the way in Stronghold which is 30 mins. away... and I can't get a hold of the man who called me... great.

~Alex

(p.s. The picture is of me on the bus ride home... black and white with a blue eye... I edited it, of course.)

I Love The Internet

Okay, this is my first blog sent by e-mail. I hope this works out okay.

Well, to start off, I went home early today. I had a very bad case of the cramps. So I'm sitting here in my pajamas. Doing nothing.

And before you start yelling at me for not typing in a long time, I know, I know, yea, yea, yea. I've been completely busy and I will continue to be busy even though I'm keeling over in pain every 5 minutes.

For english I have a whole reaction paper due.. tomorrow! She gave the assignment on Friday saying that it is due Tuesday the 20th. Those exact words. And when you hear that, you think "Okay, the 20th, I have time." She did NOT say this Tuesday, or NEXT Tuesday. If she had said that, then I would've done it over the weekend. But NO, she had to say on the 20th, this paper is due.

Another bad thing (besides people not being able to read this) about not writing in this blog for so long is the fact that I haven't been able to vent all the trash I've been dealing with out. So I resorted to telling my mom, who told my dad, I told my sister, I told my ex, David (or Divad backwards...), and I've actually, kind of, just a little bit, maybe sort-of, yelled TO (not AT) AJ about it.... Oh.. ha-ha, you want to know what "it" is. Okay, I'll tell you...


"It" is Sarah. I don't remember if I've written about her in my blog yet... anyway, she invites me to her house on Saturday (last, last Saturday) and was all nice and stuff. Then, on Monday, AJ tells me that she has hickies all over her neck. So being her FRIEND I go and ask her if it's true because some people told me... and a real friend wouldn't really care right?... wrong! She explodes in my face (now I'm starting to think that I typed this part already.. but oh well, skip ahead if you want.) and says "ALEX, what the fuck? Do you HAVE to know EVERYTHING?!" So i say "whoa, what the fuck, don't talk to me, I was just wondering." and that's that. So after that (9th period) she goes and talks all this shit about me to MY FRIEND Meredith. And she thought that Meredith, being my FRIEND, wouldn't tell me about it.... So yea, she talks shit about me. SO I go up to Faith and her boyfriend, Danny, and ask what the hell is Sarah's problem and why did she explode in my face. And Danny goes, "Yea, I wouldn't talk to her if I were you..." And Faith says "Yea, she doesn't really like you." (uhm... what did I do? Oh yea!.... NO ONE can answer that... that must mean that I DIDN'T DO ANYTHING.) So I ask Faith, "Then why, please do tell, why did she, just TWO DAYS AGO, ask me if I could go bake raspberry pancakes with you and her at HER house?" So Faith's answer was that Sarah "sometimes" likes me and then she "sometimes" doesn't... oh wow, gee, hmm, that kind of sounds a little two faced doesn't it?...yea...

So after all of that, on Friday ( now i know i didn't type this) she has the nerve to ask me for my reed (for the oboe) because hers broke. So I was about to but then I asked if I could have it back. Here's the dialogue:

Sarah (S): Well, I ran out of reeds and my new ones didn't come in the mail yet.
Alex (A): Okay but my dad can't get out and get me more reeds.
S: Well, I have a show.
A: I'm sorry, but MY DAD can't get out to BUY ME and my sister more reeds, so I need these to last me as long as possible.
S: Well fine, I guess I can give you one of mine when they come.
A: Damn strait you will.

Keep in mind that reeds for the oboe cost, oh say, $10.00 a pop. Yea, buy 10 reeds to last you the year... $100.00. So you see where I'm coming from.

So let's get this strait:

- I get invited (very nicely) to Sarah's house on Saturday to bake raspberry pancakes with Sarah and Faith.==Cool Friends.
- Someone says something about Sarah, so Alex goes and asks Sarah about it.==Good Friend.
- Sarah explodes in Alex's face.==Bad Friend.
- Sarah talks about Alex... To her friend.==Bad Friend? (or Dumb?)
- Sarah (kind of nicely) asks Alex to have one of her reeds (one out of two) and doesn't offer to give Alex one back when she gets one at first.==Not So Nice "Friend".
- Sarah talks about Alex some more IN FRONT of Alex's boyfriend.==REAL Dumb.


I think I'm finished.


~Alex

(P.S. The picture is me and my sisters after our first horse show [Divad was there].)

I Love Friends

I love Matt, He's so great to talk to =)

This is a conversation that I had online with him today... It's nothing important though...



mcc x90: did u hear what happened today?
soCCerCChiCKy: she is very unkind and unnessesary to me... no what happened today
mcc x90: well
mcc x90: she was playing saxophone
mcc x90: and i asked her
mcc x90: politely
mcc x90: niceley
soCCerCChiCKy: lol
mcc x90 sarah, could you please play your oboe
mcc x90: everyone can attest to the fact tha tI was extremely polite
mcc x90: and kind
mcc x90: but she like
mcc x90: wigged out
mcc x90: and was upset
mcc x90: and of course
mcc x90: amanda sotto
mcc x90: who was out of the room
mcc x90: comes back
mcc x90: sees her in the pet shop
mcc x90: and comes in and flips out on me
mcc x90: in front of everyone
mcc x90: for being mean to sarah
mcc x90: which i wasnt
mcc x90: she ranted at me for a bit
mcc x90:until...everyone came and told her she was wrong
mcc x90: and that i was rle nice to sarahh
mcc x90: and now everything is ok
mcc x90:idk why sarah got so upset, she mustve been having a abd day
soCCerCChiCKy:sarah hates too many people for the stupidest reasons... i have to tell u what she's been ddoing to me.. but i wont now b/c its hard to type it all haha
mcc x90:lol
mcc x90: ok, well when and if you wanna talk to someone
mcc x90: im here
soCCerCChiCKy: no, she's a bitch to everyone when she doesnt get her day.. and she ALWAYS has bad days... 8 days a week... yes 8 days
mcc x90: lol
soCCerCChiCKy: oh no, i'll tell u how 2 faced she is.. but in person lol
mcc x90: im sure its not that bad
mcc x90: she jsut makes bad decisions sometimes
mcc x90: and i think she regrets them, and thats why she gets so worked up
mcc x90: i dont dislike her for it
mcc x90: i feel bad for her, it obviously makes her unhappy
mcc x90: she does make alot of problems for people though
mcc x90: like when she got aj mad at me at hofstra lol
soCCerCChiCKy:brb phone
mcc x90: i could tell that was gunna get out of hand, i jumped on the fone and handled that right away
mcc x90: and during volleyball
mcc x90: gah
mcc x90:but its ok
mcc x90: she just makes mistakes sometimes
soCCerCChiCKy: trust me, she talks so much shit behind my back.. and she flipped out on me in band yesterday AFTER asking me to go to her house on sat. and was all nice and peachy keen. .... she cursed me out for asking her if what aj said was true about all the hickys on her neck... she says "WTF do you HAVE to know everything? just shut the hell up"
soCCerCChiCKy: mad sometimes??
mcc x90: yeah
mcc x90: well, she probably has alot on her plate
mcc x90: people can act strangely like that when they're unhappy
mcc x90: i dont really think i can blame her
soCCerCChiCKy: and everyone tells me that she doesnt like me and that she never wants to talk to me, BUT she asks me to hang out with her?? and faith said that she says she only likes me sometimes, sorry that's not goig to happen to me
soCCerCChiCKy: why can't u blame her? whats been so wrong?
mcc x90: what do you mean
mcc x90: i dont want to be angry at her
mcc x90: so im not
mcc x90: ;]
mcc x90: i cant be mad at people, it gives me nightmares and insomnia
mcc x90: :P
soCCerCChiCKy: i know.... i mean what's wrong?? you keep saying that she has a lot on her plate... like something terrible just happened
mcc x90: i dont know if anything happened
mcc x90: i didnt hear anything in particular
soCCerCChiCKy: o ok
mcc x90: but i assume shes unhappy about something
mcc x90: because of the way she acts
mcc x90: she doesnt respond to things like mos happy people would
soCCerCChiCKy: idk, whatever...
mcc x90: so, by process of elimination, we can infer that she is UNHAPPY
soCCerCChiCKy: lol
mcc x90: lol
mcc x90: i think because of this unhappiness she has insid eher
mcc x90: she makes some decisions that she regrets
mcc x90: and then becaucse she regrets these decisions
mcc x90: she feels guilty or silly or out of it
mcc x90: and this makes her more unhappy
mcc x90: until it builds up and she really messes up
mcc x90: shes more of a victim than anything else
soCCerCChiCKy: or she's just a mad person... her family screams at eachother a lot.... still, idk
mcc x90: see
soCCerCChiCKy: well, you don't know if all that is TRUE matt, it could be different
mcc x90: shes just randomly mad at people?
mcc x90: no that doesnt happen
mcc x90: sometimes its easier to look at things as random
mcc x90:but they arent
mcc x90: they obviously make sense to sarah
soCCerCChiCKy: idc anymore, she obviously doesnt want to be my firned so i'm not supposed to know anything (according to her) so.. whatever.... but still even all of aj's friends and Ryan Muondand them don't know what is wrong with me for her to hate me so much
mcc x90: i dont know
mcc x90: like i said
soCCerCChiCKy: exaclty, idk lol
mcc x90: shes probably unhappy
mcc x90: and you're probably not really at fault
mcc x90: she proably isnteither though
mcc x90: something is upsetiting her, and until she levels with herself
mcc x90: shes not going to stop
soCCerCChiCKy: ok, but is all of your predictions right about how badly she talks about me ... let a lone to my Friends?
mcc x90: predicitons?
mcc x90: she proably talks bad about you to your friends becaus eshe's unhappy
mcc x90: *because she's
soCCerCChiCKy: ok... so shes unhappy... i'll keep that inmind
mcc x90: lol
mcc x90:its proabbly true
soCCerCChiCKy: yea maybe
mcc x90: i bet something is bothering her
soCCerCChiCKy: but normal people dont always lash out at random people for the littlest things tho...
mcc x90:no they dont
mcc x90:but people who have something bothering them and are unhappy do
soCCerCChiCKy: noo, sarahs just special and only she can do that
mcc x90: lol
mcc x90: dont be mad at her
soCCerCChiCKy: and get away with it like she is
mcc x90: more anger wont stop the anger
mcc x90: lol
mcc x90:let it go, if you want to stop the fighting, try and help her with what's making her unhappy
mcc x90:THATS the only way to stop it, i think
soCCerCChiCKy: wouldn't u be mad if your good friend suddenely turned on you andtreated you like crap and talks about you behind your back... and sometimes to oyour own boyfriend (n ur case girlfriend)
mcc x90:haha
soCCerCChiCKy: im not fighting tho.. im letting her walk all over me matt..
mcc x90: thats the problem
mcc x90: dont get walked on
mcc x90:get out of the way
mcc x90: and attack the situation from a new angle
mcc x90: and in a diffrent way
mcc x90: lol, kempo 101
soCCerCChiCKy: and she even started something in front of my parents and they're mad that i didn't throw her out right then and there... i keep giving her second cchanses
soCCerCChiCKy: chances**
mcc x90: yeah
mcc x90:holding her at fault doesnt help you or her
mcc x90: or end the fighting
soCCerCChiCKy: ok.. so it's not her fault she ruined a friendship, made my parents hate her, made people look at her like she's gonna explode any minute, or hurting my feeling pretty badly... no nother fault at all
mcc x90:its true
soCCerCChiCKy: you see where im coming from?
mcc x90: she did make the decisions'
mcc x90: that caused all those problems
mcc x90: and i agree
mcc x90:but she had her own motives for ding that, and im sure it seemed like the best thing for her to do at the time
mcc x90: eevn though it wasnt
mcc x90: holding her at fault for those bad decisions she made and letting yourself get worked up over it doesnt help your situation or her situation, though
mcc x90: *ding=doing haha
mcc x90: thats my take on the situation
soCCerCChiCKy: yea... i know but it really hurt my feeling
mcc x90: shvatevs
mcc x90: im sorry
soCCerCChiCKy: lol
mcc x90: thats rough
mcc x90: :\
soCCerCChiCKy: anyway.. new subject!
mcc x90: yeah
mcc x90: when is that take home test due for ms murphy
soCCerCChiCKy: today...

I Love English

Well I just did my English homework... and I thought I'd type it up here for future reference... haha



1. Q. Hemingway might have written The Old Man and the Sea as a longer novel, taking Santiago from his early childhood to his final dreams of the lions. What would have been lost if he had done this? What gained?



A. If Hemingway wrote a longer novel for The Old Man and the Sea, I think that he would’ve lost the significance of how little words mean so much. He would’ve lost the powerful effect that he had on the reader. The great thing about this short story is that Hemingway says so much, that you could go on about the whole book, in minimal words. Though he would’ve lost that, he would’ve gained more time to explain and help the reader see the pictures that he intended to write. Hemingway would have more space to mold the picture of the scene into the readers head and maybe help to get all of the symbolism recognized.


2. Q. In much of this book the old man is talking to himself. Is this heavy reliance on the introspective monologue a weakness or a strength? Explain your answer. Would this technique be a weakness or a strength in making a film of the book? Why or why not?

A. I believe that the continuous monologue in The Old Man and the Sea is a strength. It helps the reader be creative; they can picture this old man and what he’s thinking. With a dialog, you’re not always sure what both of the characters are thinking. I also think that this technique would be a strength in a film of the book because it would show a reflection of the book itself. It would help to complete the reader’s imagination of the scenes. It’s a unique way of telling a story. You get to see both sides of the old man. One side encouraging himself and the other side telling him his own flaws.


3. Q. Why, where, and how effectively does Hemingway make use of the film making technique? Analyze several specific flashbacks.



A. Hemingway uses flashbacks to help relate the moment to the old man at a given time. One example of this is when the old man was discouraging himself about his cramped up hand. He’s was explaining and reminding himself of how strong he was when he was younger. His flashback took place in a tavern at Casablanca, “Each one was trying to force the other’s hand down onto the table… They changed the referees every four hours… Blood came out from under the fingernails of both his and the negro’s hands and they looked each other in the eye… The walls were painted bright blue and were of wood and the lamps threw their shadows against them. The negro’s shadow was huge and it moved on the wall as the breeze moved the lamps.” (Pg. 69) The old man seems to remember exactly how the room looked, and that shows how well he remembered the moment and how much that time meant to him.



4. Q. As Hemingway has built his book, does it end with a climax, an anti-climax, both, or neither? Explain your answer.


A. I don’t think that the ending of Hemingway’s book was either a climax or an anti-climax। I think that the way he concluded The Old Man and the Sea was a way to keep people from getting bored, but I don’t think that it was a climax. It showed the way how people can be in such poverty on one side of a wall, and on the other side, people can live in such luxury. And I believe that he meant the reader to see that not all stories were meant to be told. The woman who had no idea about the old man and what he went through with the big fish, and all she saw was the skeleton. No one was there to put a story behind it and to her it was just garbage in a garbage dump.


~Alex

P.S. no. picture.

I Love Clothes

It's 5:36 in the morning... I just felt like getting up this morning! You know those morning when you just get up all ready? Yea, well this is that morning.

Anyway, my weekend was pretty good besides Saturday morning... I went shopping Sunday with my grandmother, Nana... she took me to the outlets, yay! I got a ton of new shirts and a Coach hat and new jeans. Ah, I love clothes.

This is a little excerpt that was on a Starbucks coffee cup:

The Way I See It # 188

There was never a decision; it was the right thing to do. Each year I talk to 300,000 middle high school and college students about my research in the tobacco industry, and I am often asked, "Was it hard to make the decision to testify in Congress against the tobacco industry?" The answer is always the same: "There are some event in life that don't need a decision - just action."

I thought this was pretty cool, the other one that Nana had was better but she lost her cup, haha.

Well, my dad just got out of his shower so... my turn!

~Alex

(P.S. picture? Fine.... this one is of me, Ashley, and Abbey in order from left to right.)

I Love My Boyfriend

My boyfriend almost broke up with me this morning about 5 minutes ago. My head is pounding and my heart is racing. I haven't stop crying because I really truly don't want to end it with him. He's mad because I haven't been treating him the same and I've been getting mad over little things recently. My life has been really stressful lately with school and family. I know I don't really have any right to be like that but it all boils up inside of me. That's part of the reason I chose to write this blog. I really love AJ, and I really don't want to lose him. And another reason he almost ended it was because I talk on the phone with David a lot. I know I have every right to talk to him but AJ does get hurt a little inside when I do. AJ said that he already talked to somebody about it and that's part of what hurts the most. The fact that he talked to somebody else to help him consider breaking up with me.

I don't know what do say next time I talk to him. I don't know what to do. I have horseback riding in a couple of hours and now I don't know if I want to go to that. But apparently I have to because if I don't, everyone (my family) will think it's because I fell off last time. I think right now the best thing for me to do is go wash my face and then come back and think of what I should say to AJ to express how sorry I am and what I should do to change. I'm so upset... I keep forgetting to breathe. This is so horrible.

The picture is of AJ and my sister Abbey dancing.

I Love Billy Joel

Hiya! I'm in a really good mood right now. Mousey just said hi to me by putting her front paws on my left leg, then she raised her left paw and stretched and then walked away... hi Mousey!

Okay, so I guess I'll tell you my traditional day-after-school.

• I come home and put all my stuff down (bag, purse, jacket) and put my phone on the charger if it's low (if it's not, then I put it to the left of my pillow where it stays unless I'm using it.)


• Then I take my iPod and put it on my little set of speakers and play my playlist labeled "bp" (it doesn't stand for anything, just two random letter.) On this playlist, there is 28 songs and they consist of: Billy Joel [15]; Bon Jovi [2]; Dobie Gray [1]; Jimmy Buffett [1]; Lou Bega [1]; Lucas Prata [1]; Rod Stewart [5]; Shaggy (Feat. Rayon) [1]; and Tina Turner [1].


• Then I go get something to eat (lunch ends at 10:22am for me in school so....) and drink.


• I come back in my room and put all (million) of my pillows/stuffed animals on my bed. Just like, in a big mound.


• Then I turn on my computer screen and check my e-mail and then I come here and type up my blog.


• Then I go and do some homework and/or practice my oboe.


• And then I do whatever from there.

Fun right?

For some time, a while ago, me and my friend SaraH tried to do a Podcast. I have a microphone and the program to record my stuff, but I couldn't (and still, I don't know) figure out how to post it. I didn't know how to make it into "feed" or whatever. I thought it'd be easy, but apparently not. Anywho, we just stopped that for no real reason. And now... we're not doing anything specific.

AJ split his pants today. Yes, he split his pants. First it started out that there was a hole by the pocket of his pants. Then, while we were at my locker, he went to sit down on the ground and then he shot up and was like, "Oh no...". Then he asked me if his hole got bigger, so he turned around and it was so funny, there was this 4 inch rip in his pants. And so, as the day went on, his rip kept getting bigger and bigger. Finally, at the end of the day, at my locker again, it ripped a little more. So he got the bright idea to try and look at it by squatting down and sticking his head in between his legs. Then, all of the sudden, I hear a little "rip" sound. He looked at me with these really big eyes and a shocked face. I already started laughing but I told him to turn around and show me. When he turned around, I almost fell over laughing. From top of his right back pocket down 6 inches was this long rip with his boxers hanging. the look at so funny. I swear, that was the hardest I laughed in such a long time.

The wind this morning was UNBELIEVABLE. We got off the bus and started walking towards the building and tears were streaming down my face. (This is after I already poked myself with the mascara brush this morning and had tears of mascara.) And then this huge gust of wind came (after the constant really strong wind) and brought sand with it. Of course, it got in our mouths and on my friends lip gloss. It was so gross, the feeling of sand in our teeth. Ew. So when we got in the building, my across-the-street-neighbor, Greg, came in and his hair was sticking up in the front and wouldn't go down. Yes, it was very funny. That was a start to a great day of school (no sarcasm).

I'm going to leave it with that, I covered the high lights and low lights of my day and I included a boy story. We're good.

~Alex

P.S. Le picture de jour est de moi et ma grandmere, Nana, quand j'etais tres petite. (The picture of the day is of me and my grandmother, Nana, when I was very little.) Enjoy!